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Madam I am trying to heal but the pain still lingers on, maybe when I speak to someone and get advise , I will be ok. A lady I knew from the university days, she promised to wait for me till I return. I have given her half of my savings, even helped her start up her catering business, but she got married last three weeks . That week she got married, I sent her 250k that she asked me for her mothers hospital bills, shop rent money and upkeep. It's so painful . Why she did this , I don't know ? This is a lady I call 24 hours to make sure she is very comfortable. I came home last year February, asked her to see her people, she said my next visit, so she will prepare their mind, I was like, why should she wait that long? But I over looked all . When my friend sent me her traditional marriage picture, I was devastated for days, when to chat her up on Facebook but can't find her again, showing she has blocked me. When I called , she didn't pick, later she sent me a note, saying she was lonely and fell into the hands of this guy that got her pregnant. That she will continue to love me in her heart but she betrayed me by getting pregnant for another. This is a woman I engaged last year, hoping to come back this December for everything, I have even told my father because my mother is late. I feel nothing again means anything to me coming home because she was my life. Some words of encouragement will help me heal please, I am so broken that I can't even face any female at work again, help me heal faster please? I am 36 years , she is 33. The worst part is that , I want to surprise her with gifts I have been buying and keeping for her. Anytime I look towards that direction my heart bleeds heavily. Just some encouragement words please. Thank you! DorrisWedding ivory colored items to wear in the wedding